...How do I start this..so hard to make decision right now..But I need too..If I didnt do this I would be hurt too much..
I must change the way how I love guys..cos I always been hurt by them...I dunno what did I do them..Tat's y..maybe I need to change myself..Haha.. Maybe I become too bad for the past few years of my life..Tat's y Im suffering this too much.. I cant blame other people or whatever,whoever on what's happening on my life..Maybe I just deserve it..
In love..maybe I need to close now my heart. Im scared now to fall in love again. Ive been hurt too much..And I can't bear one more pain..:'(( I wished Im always a child..easy to hurt but easy to forget the pain..Just give sweets..LOLx..sna mdaling mgtago ng sakit n nararamdaman kuh! hehe kya yan..TRA TRA...
..O cia cia.. short briefing of my past days..
25 Oct - Tat day we( alyssa, kate, and jez) supposed to be applying a new part time job..But we postponed it cause asked Udin again..If its true tat $14 per hour..LOLx..super big..haha its not funny! so we decided to watched some game..hmnn I had some regrets on tat day. I should talk to him but I didnt do..but nvm its ok..much better.. so its not too hard for me to stop dreamin on him..hehe:( Im a little bit happy cos im wif bebes..we went bugis..of course..I noe eu noe..if wad's d purpose y we wnt there..to see our lovely dress..haha..tat's all!
26 Oct - of course at church!..spend the half day wif my GOd...tnx..eur still there for me. I noe eu r still making the best love story for me..In the right time..so pls..dun leave me!
27 Oct - Yesterday..yahh my bday..my worst bday??LOLx:'( I crazy missing them..Those people who could make my bday always memorable..even we dun hav money...But still thankful for those people who greeted me..Thanks to my mom..although she never give me gift..Im still happy cos she gave too much effort on my day. Im happy to have a parents like them..But still der's a part of me tat cannot find the happiness I wan..
Nothings permanent..only changes..and that was the thing I need to do.. Change a Lot!